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What makes us want to thrive? to be a better person? to make this one shot at life really count? I think it takes a very strong person to admit that they want to make themselves a better person, and I am admitting to this with no shame what so ever. I am not perfect and I'd rather hear those words from myself then any one else other then me? Right? The ego is such a funny thing when it's really broken down.

I have always been into learning new concepts, new ways of interpreting life and all that it throws at me. Anything new intrigues me to the core. I'm a reader, a writer and more then both I am a thinker. Lately I have thought myself dry, literally. I've found myself in one frustrating situation after another. So right now I'm really focusing on educating myself to be a better me, not only for myself but for the people around me. There's times in life when you get so wrapped up in all your problems, worries, hopes and dreams that you forget that reaching out and being an understanding human being is just as important. What you put out is what you receive and that will always be. So I want to be able get better at...

*Letting others finish their sentences without interrupting

*Listening more in depth

* Being more open to where others are coming from

* Understanding separate realities

*Resisting the urge to criticize

*Set aside a time to sit with myself in the quiet

*Turn my melodrama into a mellow-drama.

And that is just the beginning. There is so much more ahead of me in life, and I am at this road, which should be conveniently named "WhothehelldoIreallywanttobe AVE". Because I really want to be successful and happy, I want to be the woman that Kris would be proud to call his wife, a daughter who is always there, a supportive sister, an understanding and devoted friend, a mother to children who brag about how lucky they were to have me as their mom. There are so many things that I don't want to fail at, so I'm being proactive, and I see absolutely no shame in that.

As mentioned in my post below I read an amazing book by PH.D. Richard Carlson titled

'Don't Sweat the Small Stuff'

I am currently listening to whenever I can, which would include driving in my car or getting ready in the morning: 'Ten Secrets of Extreme Self-Esteem' by Jack Canfield, who is the Co-Creator of Chicken Soup for the Soul and also featured on The Secret.

Thriving to make you a better person is a process and it requires dedication and resilience.

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So today I am taking a deep breath before I respond, making quiet time for myself and enjoying every second, listening with ears wide opened, eating better, being more self-aware and opening myself up completely. And you know what?

It feels tremendously rewarding.